lately i crave the busy way scratching, running, breathing, gone attacking my wall and wants to stay there comes a lull in my day it's time to hold myself tell myself i'm gunna be okay silence has never whispered so loud you want, you need, you lack my heart skips some beats against me then, and i want to hit right back why do i attack myself i feel i have to go i want to stay, i'm paralysed i need to leave, or i'll overflow i'm not just a little girl i'm not a victim, and yet, i keep getting hurt inside. you made me look so easy to forget how did you just hide you lie you buried you piled you threw away all the things i had all the soul i had for you you gently took a hold of my heart then ripped it out of my chest i would have been so good for you you really made a mess