Casile Naomi

Last night I finally caught up to sleep I grabbed it and it grabbed me I tried to dream of him But thoughts of you crept up instead I close my eyes and there you are Playing games with me with tricks of fire Hitting me in all my weak spots I am chained so I can't make you stop You burnt me there you burn me here You whispered lies and excited my fear You made me weak inside my self You shied me down, buried my self wealth You packaged me in and you fixed me up You painted me in, but still I was not enough You held me down while saying 'you're free' "What I am with you is the real me" You played it right in your game you won You made me fight for something wrong You acted crazy then said I was insane You said you would do better then did it again You attack yourself by attacking me Love is an act you cannot conceive You will hate yourself, or maybe not All I know is at happiness, I have a better shot You built me up for the fun of washin...

1. We are no longer facebook friends. win! 2. Why is left over spaghetti so damn good. yum. 3. Juice is just awesome 4. I can actually do shit when I take time to do it 5. I can't eat spaghetti with a white shirt on, so I went to change, came back out... Emily: "Casile, you changed into another WHITE shirt." awesome. 6. I think I'm going to go to Ottawa to see Mike soon. Yes. 7. I'm pretty content right now. 8. I think I'm more surprised at the fact that I don't care as much as I thought I would. Hm. 9. A lot of life really comes down to "mind over matter". 10. Making new friends is so easy if you seriously just be yourself.

sad embarrassed humiliated uncomfortable awkward proud that i didn't hurt him strong weak better off lucky straight up hilarious sometimes angry confused super pissed disrespected like the bigger person empty, even though it's not true like there are really shitty people in the world as though it was all a lie like i was the one in the wrong, which is NOT true at all like he hates me like i will never trust again like a rebound taken advantage of like my niceness get's me nothing but hurt

WOW . I AM TERRIFIED . STRAIGHT UP TERRIFIED .

I don't care what anyone says. I think Adele is amazing. Through all this bullshit, which is, infact, bullshit, her music makes me feel less crazy. Hard to explain. But she's the shit.  I don't miss him. I don't. I miss the idea of him, but I think I'm happier on my own. "Regrets and mistakes are memories made." He can pretend I don't exist, which he has. And fine, that's immature and cowardly. If that is how he wants things to be then fine. We can act like strangers all he wants. Still doesn't change anything. People are going to do what they want. People, but not all people, are going to do what best benefits themselves, and not take anyone else into consideration. I think that attribute is both a blessing and a curse. It's hard for me to talk about all this and make sense at the same time.  Basically what I'm saying is, I'm better off without him. And in the least cocky way possible, because I don't mean this in the way most...

Only one i wanna talk to but its about how to go on without you the place i wanna go to when i feel i cant do it the without you i don't wanna know so i, will pick up my feet and choose to stay so i, will close every door that swings my way and its, my face that fails to show everything without you, is the unknown don't ask me to stand don't ask me to run ill do what i can till this feeling is done don't tell me to see, that i'm being strong when i see that i'm week and don't want to move on and the serious, is that it's dangerous, because it seems so harmless and the sadness, is that our happiness, is dangerously delerious and the comedy, is an experience cause without you none of it exists finally, heads my way and then it turns and hits i cant have what i want and you want what you can have so change your mind so i can find that what you have will be with you in time how come you got to make the decesion that i shou...