Casile Naomi

you can do without it the constant poking at your back the dripping drain while you lay awake the constant reminder of a mistake you can live without it the ache when you wake up the cloud that hangs above you every time you hear 'i love you' you can do without me the burden of your past the burden of your tomorrow  the burden of your now i take one step foreward and two steps back only gaining knowledge of what it is i lack you won't want me back

It's moments like these, when I'm laying in bed watching anything that will make me cry, trying to force myself to eat, and constantly checking my Facebook notifications that is sadly empty and void that I wonder how I got here. It's not as bad as it sounds really, or maybe it is, who knows. It's just times like these where I find myself questions what I want out of life... a degree? a masters? a phd? And really the only answer I come down to is Happiness. It's tricky though isn't it. Trying to figure out what your happiness looks like. So, as I'm in between school and not knowing if I'm going to go back I've decided to try and pin-point what my happiness looks like. 1. Love 2. Financial stability 3. Family 4. Self-love 5. Learning 6. Continuing art 7. Reading 8. Writing 9. Comfortable living arrangements 10. Friends 11. Security Network Now, as of right now, I have 1. Love, although he is in Ottawa, 2 provinces away. I have 3. Family...