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It's moments like these, when I'm laying in bed watching anything that will make me cry, trying to force myself to eat, and constantly checking my Facebook notifications that is sadly empty and void that I wonder how I got here.
It's not as bad as it sounds really, or maybe it is, who knows. It's just times like these where I find myself questions what I want out of life... a degree? a masters? a phd? And really the only answer I come down to is Happiness.
It's tricky though isn't it. Trying to figure out what your happiness looks like. So, as I'm in between school and not knowing if I'm going to go back I've decided to try and pin-point what my happiness looks like.

1. Love
2. Financial stability
3. Family
4. Self-love
5. Learning
6. Continuing art
7. Reading
8. Writing
9. Comfortable living arrangements
10. Friends
11. Security Network

Now, as of right now, I have 1. Love, although he is in Ottawa, 2 provinces away. I have 3. Family, who love and support me no matter what I do. 4. Self-love, I have, but have to also work on. 5. I am always learning, but presently not attending school or classes as I try to figure out what I am going to do. 6. Art, I will always paint, I think. 7. Reading, haven't had much time for that. 8. Writing, this IS writing. 9. I'm working on that, which factors into my decision makings. 10. I have. 11. I have.

So.. what's the issue here. I don't know.

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