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i wake up every morning

at around 2 am

it sounds cliche but it alway hits me

im here while shes with him

sometimes it takes over

the thought of what we had

i never knew these emotions so well

angry, confused and sad

it sounds a little childish

but i do wish him the worst

i know that i dont mean it but,

i really want him to hurt

sometimes i feel resentment

sometimes i feel sympathy

but really all i wanna know

is how could he do this to me

i don't mean to sound conceded

i don't mean to sound stuck up

but really all i did was try to make him happy

he said i was, then said i wasn't enough

how can someone do that

how can someone so quickly change

then i think he didn't

i just saw the image, that he chose to portray 

what i saw was distorted

he showed me fakeness, that i didn't see through

he made me believe he was a good person

i still get angry at myself, for questioning whether its true

ive never been so betrayed someone

i dont think ive ever been this hurt

but i think ill look back on this one day

and realize what all that i learnt