So. I've been in an on-going battle to quit smoking, for who knows how long now. Over a year.
I still remember the day I started. I can honestly say that it's my biggest regret in life. I don't really believe in regret, or feel like people should regret things, because at the time you did whatever you are saying you regret now, it was the right thing, in your mind... at the time.
But I knew it was the wrong thing, and I did it anyway, and now I can't stop. I shouldn't say I can't. I can. It's just honestly the hardest thing I have ever done.
What's worse is the shit I get from other people, I mean I get it. I remember when I didn't smoke and my brother did and I was so pissed and didn't understand why he kept smoking after he told me he was quitting, I was like... Just fucking stop?
IT IS NOT THAT EASY. I am sorry, whoever gives me shit for caving in at points doesn't understand, I'm not defending myself, In my head I know I'm being weak, or whatever they want to call it, but if you've never been addicted, you seriously don't get it.
Quitting smoking is one of the hardest things to do, and I NEED to do it. I WANT to do it. But I'm terrified I won't be able to. I have quit before, for months at a time, actually. I just always think, "one won't hurt" and then it starts from there and builds itself back up.
My dad today said, "Casile, you have to quit smoking. Every time you've been home visiting you've been coughing. Do you realize you're killing yourself?
That hit hard... I never hear things like that from my dad, so.. I need to do it.
Fuck, why is it so hard to do. Makes me so mad at myself... seriously, so pissed... and disappointed.
I still remember the day I started. I can honestly say that it's my biggest regret in life. I don't really believe in regret, or feel like people should regret things, because at the time you did whatever you are saying you regret now, it was the right thing, in your mind... at the time.
But I knew it was the wrong thing, and I did it anyway, and now I can't stop. I shouldn't say I can't. I can. It's just honestly the hardest thing I have ever done.
What's worse is the shit I get from other people, I mean I get it. I remember when I didn't smoke and my brother did and I was so pissed and didn't understand why he kept smoking after he told me he was quitting, I was like... Just fucking stop?
IT IS NOT THAT EASY. I am sorry, whoever gives me shit for caving in at points doesn't understand, I'm not defending myself, In my head I know I'm being weak, or whatever they want to call it, but if you've never been addicted, you seriously don't get it.
Quitting smoking is one of the hardest things to do, and I NEED to do it. I WANT to do it. But I'm terrified I won't be able to. I have quit before, for months at a time, actually. I just always think, "one won't hurt" and then it starts from there and builds itself back up.
My dad today said, "Casile, you have to quit smoking. Every time you've been home visiting you've been coughing. Do you realize you're killing yourself?
That hit hard... I never hear things like that from my dad, so.. I need to do it.
Fuck, why is it so hard to do. Makes me so mad at myself... seriously, so pissed... and disappointed.
No idea who you are, found this by clicking random links, but I'm in the same boat, quitting smoking is a pain in the ass. The best way to do it is find someone to quit with you, the support factor helps a lot.
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