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we used to be the other two
that never feared falling through
when everyone else was doing shots
we liked sharing deeper thoughts

we had fun doing simply things
you showing me to blow smoke rings
falling asleep on your parents couch
and waking up to an empty house

i ask myself questions about us
things my heart and head discuss
but sometimes they aren't in sync
i fear when my heart starts to think

its not that i don't love you
because i do, belong with you
i think we'll always make it
but i'm scared we'll break it

i get scared of falling out of tune
and i'll stay because i love you
losing myself in the midst of the numb
and look back on what i could have done

i get scared of losing myself
becoming a book that never leaves my shelf
i worry that one day you won't be able to see
all the reasons you fell in love with me
but neither of us will leave

i'm scared of you wondering if you could have had better
wondering if you'll wish you hadn't said 'forever'
im scared of you not telling the truth
because you promised 'i'll never leave you'

i'm scared of being them, treading water legs become thin
the ones too persistent to sink but can't swim
i'm scared of losing myself in you
and if you did ever leave, then i'd be gone too

i'm scared of losing you.
i'm scared of losing me.
but i thank god for fear.
because for the first time i'm afraid
that it's the person next to me
that will want to leave




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