bs?

I've often cursed my heart for being "too big". The amount I care about people is sometimes crippling, sometimes even a little self destructive. I always put others before myself, which is occasionally a bad thing. People always say you need to help yourself before you can help others, and I do believe that. But I will always be a lover and a giver. If you show me your heart, even for a second, I will care about you unconditionally. If you treat me like crap, and break promises, and take me for granted, I may not put up with you, but I will still, regardless, and sometimes like a fool, care about you. I see the best in people, and people often say it's a bad thing. But right now I feel like saying "fuck it". This isn't mean to sound egotistic, but I like to think there's people like me out in the world for a reason. 

"If equal affection cannot be, let the more loving one be me" - W.H. Auden