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I feel really good today.
It's still cold out but it's so sunny, it feels like spring in a weird sort of way. 
I'm feeling more myself today than ever I think, I think that's why I'm so calm.
I just finished writing my Plato's Republic midterm, so easy. I think I did really well and I got a B on my last one so I'm feeling pretty confident.
Dad had a dream about Tom last night, said they were chatting and Tom was worried about me for some reason. Dad said it made him miss him, and that he loved Tom. Let's face it, we all loved Tom. He said we still do. I agreed. I will always have so much love for that boy, and that is okay. Because I'm not one to hold grudges, and I hope eventually, Tom will allow me to be in his life again, as a friend, that is.
I tried reaching out to him today with a message saying hey, but he didn't respond. That's fine. He moves at his own speed.
Liz and I are rooming together next year, we have a meeting tonight to pick our rooms. I realized how hippie our room is going to look, instruments and patterns here we come.
I can't control my feelings about certain things lately and it's frustrating. It's hard when I feel like someone is in a position where their heart is being taken for granted. I've been approached a lot lately for relationship advice, in general. Makes me feel like I went through so much pain for a reason, to help other people. 
Maybe that's just naive thinking, but I think everything happens for a reason and I know I am where I am today for a greater reason, and good one. Even though it is hard to see that when you're in the midst of it.
Everything WILL be okay.
Love and be loved in return.
Protect your heart, but don't completely shut people out.


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