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in dependent

he's here in three days.
awesome.
work is awesomely tiring, but also awesomely awesome. both jobs actually. win. 
i realized today, while waiting in the food court to start working drinking coffee and reading eat pray love, how important my sense of independence is.
aidan and have talked about it, we both agree we cherish time alone, not that we don't like being together, by any means. just, when time alone presents itself, we cherish it. 
i kinda let my sense of in-dependency slip away when i was with tom. i think that's why i was partially so devastated when we broke up. cause i was lost, and didn't know ME, and had to re-discover and re-locate ME.
i think that's also why i was so scared to let anyone else in, out of fear that i'd lose myself again. 
aidan said he'd never want to take that away from me, and i believe him.
i'm still very independent, and sometimes too independent for my own good. 
but i like it that way.
he likes me that way.
we're good. it's all good.
good.

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