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Fuck I Suppose

Sometimes you just need to let the old stuff out. So fuck. This is just word vomit. And it makes me feel the weakest I've ever felt. But I don't care. 


Dear tom,
I see it all now that you’re gone
You’re done
I gave you all that I had
I breathed life into you 
Now lay me down to rest
I’ve got nothing left
When you pulled away from me
Then pulled out of my drive way
I crumbled to the pavement
I kicked up the rocks
That you stood on
You kissed me on the forehead
Said that I’d be better off on my own
And yet I still feel lost, with no direction home
You were all I’d ever known
I felt so abandoned waiting for you to come back
But you never once turned around, for one last look
At what you were leaving behind
I tried and cried and I wept
I thought you would want this love 
To be kept
But you’re gone
And you said that you’re never coming home
To me
So I’ll sing
I’ll play my guitar and I’ll write
Cause I’m way too tired and weak
To fight
For something that doesn’t want me to win
I don’t know where to begin
Cause I’m still stuck in the past
I thought that we would outlast
The rest
Now we’re crushed
Nothing left to show of our love
You threw it all away
I tried to stay
I’m tired of hiding 
I’m tired of acting strong
When I’m not even sure who I am
Without you
I miss you
I loved you
I need you
To care.
I’m here and you’re there and it isn’t even fair
That you get to be okay, when you’re the one who ran away from it all.
And maybe this is just word vomit, and maybe it doesn’t make sense to you
Or maybe you just pretend cause you don’t want me to
Come crawling back, like I’ve done before
Well I’m curled and I’m on the floor
Wishing you were here rubbing my back
Telling me that we’ll make it back
To what we used to be
Im cold and im tired
I don’t know how this transpired 
But I’m feeling the aftermath now
Where are you?
Where are we?
Where is all that it was supposed to be?

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