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when i'm able to walk, i'm queen of my world

i'm sitting here smiling like an idiot.
it's kinda a jump from my last post.

my parents are working on things. things were going up and down so i some what cut of communication until they were on solid ground with what was going on. it was hard to do, cause they are my friends and i like being there for them. but i had to be selfish and protect my heart from all that was going on. they're doing well no, working on things, living together etc. i'm happy.

i'm so happy with my life. even in the midst of all that was going on at home (which is now improved) i love my life. this might sound dorky, but, do you ever see this group of people that you are aquaintances with but never hung out with and wish you could get to know them? yah that sounds dumb. but throughout the last 2 weeks i have made the most memories and best friends here than i did in all the other year and a half here. i have great friends now, a social circle to feel comfortable in.

i'm so happy with my relationship with mike. it's hard to explain really. things are.... right. everything feels like its falling in to place for once. i feel grounded, and affirmed in my situation and place here now. i love him, i love my school, i love my new friends, and love hanging out with my old ones that i'd drifted with.

mmm. life. i love. i love.

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