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i love my life, so suck it.

this is me, my hair is long as eff now.
i've been thinking lately, people are always hesitant to say they love their lives, or that they're happy.
i've found more often than not that either people are in denial and pretend they're happy, they're content, OR they're unhappy/depressed and hopeless. morbid, but true.
people are so afraid to say "i love my life" or "life is great" or "i love myself" or "i'm genuinely happy"
so, i yelled it today. i yelled that i loved my life. because i do. and yes, it's scary because there is always a chance things can go downhill, but what kind of life would it be if you just always settled on the bottom so that you couldn't go any farther down. a pretty pathetic one if you ask me.
i love my life.
i love myself.
and i am genuinely happy.
it has been awhile since i have felt this free, or uplifted of whatever the hell you want to call it. i love myself. i love my life and i'm fuckin' happy. and i'm going to enjoy it. so everyone who thinks that is cocky, or naive, can shove it. cause it's true. it's fuckin terrifying yeah, but who gives a fuck honestly.
yeah things go downhill sometimes but the fact that i am happy now and wasn't before proves that things always turn around, and that things have to get worse before they can get better.
my heart feels like it's smiling. i know that sounds effin weird and corny but it does. it's an indescribable feeling really, i tried to explain it to someone today and the only thing that came of it was me throwing my hands in the air and jumping and saying "YA KNOW?! I FEEL.... (action)" .. they just stared and laughed. 
oh well.
that's how i feel.
and it's fuckin awesome, yep. so cheers

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