well, long distance relationships are by far the hardest thing i've tried or had to do i think.
it's been 2 days and i'm already finding it extremely challenging.
i worry that he will convince himself into not trying.
or that he will forget about his feelings for me.
or something.
it's hard to explain really.
i worry a lot, and i know that.
but i feel as though he has issues too, like it's been 2 days and i can already tell he is distancing himself.
which is normal in a sense, i suppose. but it makes it harder on me.
it's hard when all you want to do it talk in person and spend time together but you're 2 provinces away.
i want this to work so bad that i may be trying too hard which is going to mess it up.
i'm trying not to make the same mistakes i have in the past.
this is scary.
i feel so vulnerable.
i need to stop obsessing over it.
i over think just about everything.
just seems like he texted and talked to me more when i was in the same area.
BLARGH.
4 months is a long time.
we'll see. is all i can say, or do.
it's out of my control.
it's been 2 days and i'm already finding it extremely challenging.
i worry that he will convince himself into not trying.
or that he will forget about his feelings for me.
or something.
it's hard to explain really.
i worry a lot, and i know that.
but i feel as though he has issues too, like it's been 2 days and i can already tell he is distancing himself.
which is normal in a sense, i suppose. but it makes it harder on me.
it's hard when all you want to do it talk in person and spend time together but you're 2 provinces away.
i want this to work so bad that i may be trying too hard which is going to mess it up.
i'm trying not to make the same mistakes i have in the past.
this is scary.
i feel so vulnerable.
i need to stop obsessing over it.
i over think just about everything.
just seems like he texted and talked to me more when i was in the same area.
BLARGH.
4 months is a long time.
we'll see. is all i can say, or do.
it's out of my control.
you can do this man. i'm going through the same thing. it doesn't mean anything that he texts you less. dont let your mind wander to that place. keep busy. find happiness on your own so that you can find happiness together when you come back.
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