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Breathe In- Frou Frou

Sitting in my room. The sun is shining in my window and causing a glare on my computer screen but I don't care. Today is a good day. I'm not sure what has happened but I'm feeling shift in my soul. As corny as it sounds I feel change in the air. The wind is cold today but the air is fresh. I sat outside with Liz and had a cigarette and we were just talking. I'm so thankful to have her. I'm not sure if she feels the same but she is my sturdy ground here. I'm thankful for my friends and family and as much as it hurt to go through all the shit I went through last year and this year, I'm glad I experienced everything I did. I was walking back to my  residence alone and the scenery here is just breath taking. I'm taking deep breathes and evaluating my life. When it all comes down to it I KNOW I'll be okay. I'm happy today. I'm truly happy. I'm letting go piece by piece. I haven't spoken to Tom in over a week. I still think about him but I know that what is meant to happen will happen. Life is good. Life is great. Missing reading Streams in the Desert, I might start reading that again. I've noticed that I start praying every night when I lay in bed. That makes me happy too. I feel like i'm in a good spot, and I haven't been this happy in a long time. So here's to a good day. I'll take them as they come.

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