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wtf

  • i think i've turned into one of those girls i hate
  • i only feel myself 1% of the time i think
  • kd is over-rated
  • kitchens are over-rated
  • i miss tom
  • i just sat outside having a smoke wondering who could i call right now and have a legit conversation with, no one came to mind. no one that would answer my call
  • i think i come across as extremely full of myself
  • why am i like this
  • i can't think of any one person that really KNOWS me other than my family, and maybe some friends. but not really
  • i think i depend on people too much
  • why does shit always get fucked up?
  • why am i trying to figure something out that makes no sense.
  • what am i here for
  • music is weird. i love it
  • there are bands/artists i haven't been able to listen to since tom and i broke up, they were all my favorites
  • joel plaskett
  • alexi murdoch
  • the perishers
  • florence and the machine
  • mgmt
  • memories suck
  • memories are awesome
  • my mind is messed up
  • i feel like i am hurting people
  • i don't want to lose what i've worked for
  • i feel like as soon as i let people in, they leave
  • i don't know what i want, and it's scary
  • i have a hard time crying, but i want to, maybe it would help
  • i love my family, i miss them.
  • teener will always be there for me
  • i just want someone who is real, to sweep me off my feet
  • love stories make me hate my life, yet i always wish for it to happen to me
  • i am scared to get older
  • i loved him so much.
  • i think i still do. but i don't know how to deal with this.
  • i think i've shut down. become someone else. and tried to forget who i was. because he didn't love that person enough to stay. i don't know
  • i can't think straight.
  • i feel like a disappointment, to myself. and to others
  • do people trust me?
  • am i annoying?
  • am i fake?
  • am i even casile anymore?
  • why is this so hard
  • why is ignoring it so easy at times, and so impossible at other times?
  • i'm not okay.
  • am i okay?
  • is this normal?
  • will i ever move on?
  • will i ever fall in love again.
  • do i even know what love is or was it fake?
  • i think i know it was real. but is that just me thinking it was?
  • why do i suck.
  • why do i always try to please people and end up falling short?
wtf man.

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