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December

I wandered home
With an unsure feeling in my chest
I thought for sure
When I got there
There'd be nothing for me left

I wandered around
Wondering when I'd see your face
Awkward encounters
When I got there
We talk, but it's all fake

The snow is falling now
Covering up everything I knew
The green is now buried with my heart
I think I still love you
Through the white, they're seeping through
And then I know
I'm just putting on a show
I'm no longer free
Cause I still want you to love me

Let's wander around together
Speaking of things we both already know
Pretend like the sadness in our voices
doesn't show
You didn't do it right
Everyone says I'm too forgiving
They don't know I had to forgive you
In order to keep living
But am I breathing

Flakes come down and hit me now
They blend in with the tears
I sometimes catch myself speaking your name
Voicing all my fears
I wish you were here.

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