BOOM!

I feel like I got so much done today. I don't know.

I had my midterm and stuff and that wasn't great but it wasn't awful either.
I FINALLY did laundry.
I went to the gym!
I cleaned my room!
I dunno why but those things just make me feel better.
I realize I feel a lot better when I'm making myself useful, or just doing things that prove to myself that I can do whatever I want.

I have free will... I don't know. It's hard to explain. But essentially I can do what I want when I want to.
That sounds cocky and weird but I mean it in a way that is freeing. I'm not sure.
I felt really shitty this afternoon, bogged down, trapped, or like, I dunno, scared?

I feel as though I depend on people too much. And at any minute I know those people could turn and run away and not look back.
I know that very well. I have had multiple friends and significant others just peel out of my life with no reason given and no explanation.
Do I repel people?
Can people not stand me? And get sick of me?
I'm not sure. I don't want to think about it too much cause I could just be over analyzing.
Or maybe I'm right. I dunno.
That just came from who knows where. I've been thinking about it a lot lately.
Either I have really good hunches on how people feel towards me, whether they like me or not OR I just worry too much. FACK

Sleep time.